The Day Of...

11/8/12
  Tonight I'm leaving home. I've finally made up my mind. Got my iPod alarm set for 1:30 and that's when I'm gonna put my stuff in the truck and leave.
  The leaving is gonna be the hardest part, not because I don't want to or anything, but it's gonna be hard not to wake anyone up. I'm probably gonna have to manually open the garage door, and since we stacked the cars in the garage, I'm gonna have to pull his out before I can get to the truck. Since my dad's car isn't too loud when it starts up, I'll hopefully be able to start it up and pull it out. The truck might be a problem though, and I might just have to put it in neutral and push it out, which isn't ideal. Once I get the truck out I'll pull dad's car back in and close/ reattach the garage door. Then I'll grab my backpack, lock the side garage door on the way out, hop in the truck and be on my way.
I hope to be gone no later than 2:15, giving me time to be as quiet as possible.
  On the top I'm wearing a gray long sleeve shirt, a quarter-zip fleece and my hoodie. I got my jeans on the bottom, but I'm having a hard time deciding what shoes to wear, because I stepped in dog shit or something with the pair I was gonna wear, and the other pair is losing the padding on the heel, making the plastic frame scratch my foot up. I'll decide later.
  I don't have a whole lot of money. Dad surprisingly gave me $20 today for helping him do work at one of the rental homes he owns. So that brings my grand total of straight up cash to $23. I might be able to withdraw some from the bank tomorrow, but mom's been going through my mail so I don't have my ATM/Debit card I'm supposed to have, meaning I'm going to have to go into the bank, which isn't exactly what I wanna do.
  I don't wanna be seen, I don't want people to know where I am. I'm going to have my phone and iPod touch, but I'm not planning on having my phone on that often. If I'm gonna talk to anybody it's gonna be through my Google Voice number on WiFi. It'll be harder to track me that way.
  How long does it sound like I've been planning for this? It's only been a day or two. I just need to go. I have a box full of stuff for her, but she didn't want it, so I have no clue what to do with it. Plus she leaves to go out of town at 7:30 tomorrow morning. I'll be long gone by then. Hopefully my parents don't think I'm trying to get with her or something. No, there's not a snowball's chance in hell we're getting back together. It kills me, but she made up her mind 3 months ago, when we were still going out. The actual break up was only about a week ago, but it feels like so much longer...

  Looks like I'm gonna have to set my timer back another hour, my brother's staying up longer than I thought he would.


11/9/12
  Damn it. I fell asleep. It's now about 5am, meaning I don't have any time to try to leave. Hopefully Dad will take his car somewhere and I can sneak out then. That's probably better seeing as I'll be able to stop at the bank before anyone notices I'm missing. Problem is that she leaves in two and a half hours, and I really don't know what to do with this box...
  Oh well, might as well go back to sleep…
  Woke up again around 8:15, I didn't realize this, but apparently today is the third anniversary of the death of my grandpa. That's gonna make today pleasant.
  Dad asked me if I wanted to go to church with him this morning, and I said no. This may seem sick, but when he goes to church and remembers the death of his father, I plan on leaving.
  Plan foiled again. Apparently Mom and my brother took each took a car to school today, with Mom driving her Traverse and my brother with Dad's CR-V. Of course that means that when Dad went to church, he had to take the truck. I'm either gonna have to find a way to leave during the day and make my dad think I'm going somewhere else, meaning I'd have to sneak out my backpack and pillow (I decided I'm bringing a pillow in case I need to sleep in the car).
  My back pack is full, it contains the basics [toothbrush (new in package), toothpaste (travel size), electric razor with charging cord, comb, nail clippers, deodorant, extra socks and boxers, some plain white T-shirts, and an Under Armour long sleeve], some creature comforts [phone, iPod touch, little dual USB car charger, audio in through cassette cord, headphones, a USB wall charger, and a four port USB hub to charge my phone and iPod from one outlet.], and some things to make myself look a little different every once in a while, like scissors to cut my hair, another jacket and different hats. I'm working on selling my 5th gen iPod nano for some extra money too, so I can buy more stuff if I need to.
  I realize it's gonna be tough out there, and I may not be able to afford everything I need. I did have a bad phase in high school, and I got pretty good at stealing things and sneaking around. Haven't done anything like that in a while but… I'm not sayin I'm gonna go to a gas station and demand they empty the register. I wouldn't do anything like that, mostly cause those guys are dumb and never get very far. I'm gonna hafta be quiet and blend in. The best time to take something is when there's a lot of people around. I have this pair of scissors that cuts through almost anything, good for getting through those shitty plastic packages stuff always comes in. I have gloves so I don't leave fingerprints, and the hats/hoodie to cover my face. I'm thinking about grabbing another license plate for the truck. We had another CR-V that my dad still has the plate for, and when he bought his '61 Buick it had California plates on it. I think he still has those. Those are probably the ones I'd use, because they won't trace back to my family.
  I'm trying to think if there's anything else I need to bring, but I can't think of anything…
  Guess I'm just waiting for a good time to go…


I guess this is goodbye…